I’m jealous. I’m jealous a lot. And it feels good to finally say that. Every day I see other bloggers talking about the cool things they’re going to be doing and the amazing places they just went. They’re doing the things that I want to be doing. And then I always think, “Why not me?”
And really. Why not me? It’s a good question to ask whenever you’re feeling jealous. (Jealous about blogging like me or jealous about pretty much anything.) Because maybe it’s your fault. Maybe it’s my fault. Am I doing a good enough job to get the things I really want? I work hard, but am I working hard enough? Have I made the same or even better efforts than the person who actually got whatever it was I wanted? Did I even make it known that I wanted whatever it was that I didn’t get?
Let’s face it: life’s not fair. If anyone ever told you it was they were wrong. But just because life isn’t fair it doesn’t mean it’s totally unfair, either. Sure, sometimes someone who totally sucks is going to get something totally awesome and it’s just. not. fair. But in the great scheme of things it all really does balance out. And despite the fact that I didn’t have any PR reps inviting me on press junkets to Bali, I had a pretty good year. Heck, 2013 had moments of sheer amazingness. Those are the moments I’m going to focus on.
What’s more, in my year of living ambitiously, I’m not going to fight my jealousy. I’m going to embrace it. (But only in a positive way. At least in my good moments.) I’m turning jealousy into my goal planner this year. If I see something that makes me jealous I’m not to dwell on the “why not me” of it all. I’m going to ask, “Why not me?” And I’m going to figure out a way to make it happen.